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The Youth With No Regrets

The Youth With No Regrets

Xiaowen    Chongqing City

“Love is a pure emotion, pure without a blemish. Use your heart, use your heart to love and feel and care. Love doesn’t set conditions or barriers or distance. … In love there’s no suspicion,no cunning, no deceit. Use your heart, use your heart to love and feel and care. In love there is no distance and nothing that’s not pure” (“Pure Love Without Blemish” in Follow the Lamb and Sing New Songs). This hymn of God’s word once helped me get through the pain of a long and drawn-out life in prison that lasted 7 years and 4 months. Even though the CCP government deprived me of the most beautiful years of my youth, I have obtained the most precious and real truth from Almighty God and therefore have no complaints or regrets.

In 1996 I received God’s exaltation and accepted Almighty God’s salvation in the last days. Through reading God’s words and gathering in fellowship, I determined that all God has said is truth, which is in complete contrast to all the knowledge and theories of this evil world. Almighty God’s word is the highest maxim for life. What made me more excited was that I could be simple and open and freely talk about anything with the brothers and sisters. I didn’t have the slightest need to protect myself against second guessing or being outwitted by people when interacting with them. I felt a comfort and happiness I had never felt before; I really liked this family. However, it wasn’t long before I heard that the country didn’t permit people to believe in Almighty God. This matter made me feel at a complete loss, because His word allowed people to worship God and walk the correct path of life; it allowed people to be honest. If everyone believed in Almighty God, then the whole world would be at peace. I really didn’t understand: Believing in God was the most righteous undertaking; why did the CCP government want to persecute and oppose believing in Almighty God to the point that they would arrest His believers? I thought: No matter how the CCP government persecutes us or how big social public opinion is, I have determined that this is the correct path of life and I will certainly walk on it to the end!

After this, I began fulfilling my duty in the church of distributing books of God’s word. I knew that fulfilling this duty in this country which resisted God was very dangerous and I could be arrested at any time. But I also knew that as part of the whole creation, it was my mission in life to spend everything for God and fulfill my duty; it was a responsibility that I could not shirk. Just as I was beginning to confidently cooperate with God, one day in September of 2003, I was on my way to give some brothers and sisters books of God’s word and was arrested by people from the city’s National Security Bureau.

At the National Security Bureau, I was interrogated over and over again and I did not know how to respond; I urgently cried out to God: "Oh Almighty God, I ask You to give me Your wisdom, and grant me with the words I should speak so that I will not betray You and I can stand witness for You. "During that time, I cried out to God daily; I did not dare to leave God, I only asked God to grant me with intelligence and wisdom So that I would be able to deal with the evil police. Praise God for watching over and protecting me; every time I was interrogated, either I was spitting, or incessantly hiccupping and could not speak. In seeing God's marvelous work, Fix ones: Hold nothing back! They can take my head, they can take my life, but they will be absolutely not make me betray God today!When I set my resolution that I would risk my life than betray God like Judas, God give me the "go-ahead" in every respect: Every time I was interrogated, God would protect me and allow me to peacefully get through the ordeal . Even after I did not say anything, the CCP government accused me of "using an evil cult to destroy the implementation of the law" and sentenced me to 9 years in prison! When I heard the court ruling, I was not sad Thanks to God's protection, and I was not afraid of them either; I despised them. When those people were pronouncing the sentence, I said in a low voice: "This is evidence that the CCP government is opposing God!" Later The public security officers came just to spy on how my attitude was, and I calmly said to them: "What is nine years? When the time comes for me to get out,I will still be a member of the Church of Almighty God; if you do not believe me, just wait and see! But you have to remember, this case was once in your hands! "My attitude really surprised them; they stuck up They are more than Sister Jiang is! When the time comes for you to get out, we will congregate again and you will be invited! "At that time, I felt That God gained the glory and my heart was inspired. That year when I was sentenced, I was only 31 years old.When the time comes for you to get out, we will congregate again and you will be invited! "At that time, I felt that God gained the glory and my heart was inducedified. That year when I was sentenced, I was only 31 years Old.When the time comes for you to get out, we will congregate again and you will be invited! "At that time, I felt that God gained the glory and my heart was inducedified. That year when I was sentenced, I was only 31 years Old.

China's jails are hell on earth, and long-term prison life made the essence of inhumanness of Satan and its devilish substance that has become an enemy to God. China's police do not follow the rule of law, but follow the rule of Evil. In evil, the police do not personal deal with the people, but they incite the prisoners to violence to manage the other prisoners. The evil traffic also use all kinds of methods to confine people's thoughts; for example, each person who comes In has to wear the same prisoner uniforms with a special serial number, they have to cut their hair according to the prison's requirements, they have to wear shoes approved by the prison, they have to walk on paths that the prison allow them to walk on , And they have to march at a pace that the prison provided them to march.Regardless of whether it is spring, summer, fall or winter, whether it is rain or shine, or whether it is a bitterly cold day, all prisoners have to do as they are commanded without any choice. Each day we were required to assemble at Least 15 times to number off and sing praises to the CCP government at least five times; we also had political tasks, that are, those made us study prison laws and the constitution, and they made us take an exam every six months. Of the same prisoners are not only persecuted us mentally, they also ravaged us physical with complete inhumanness: I had to do hard labor for over ten Hours a day, crammed with several hundreds other people in a narrow factory performing manual labor.Because there were so many people in such little space, and because the clamorous noise of machinery was everywhere, no matter how healthy a person was, their bodies would have suffered serious serious if they stayed for there for a period of time. Behind me was an Eyebrow punching machine and every day it incessantly punched out eyelets. The rumbling sound it transmitted was unbearable and after a few years, I suffer a serious loss of hearing. Even to this day I have not recovered. What was even more harmful to people was The details of the dust and pollution in the factory. After being examined, many people were found to have contracted tuberculosis and pharyngitis. In addition, due to long periods of sitting there doing manual labor, it was impossible to move about and many people contracted serious hemorrhoids.The Ambition government treated prisoners like machinery used to make money; they did not have the slightest regard for any people lived or died. They made people work from early in the morning until late into the night. I was frequent so exhausted that physical Could not go on. It was not only this, I also had to deal with all kinds of random exams in addition to my weekly political tasks, and manual tasks, so whenever, every day I was in a state Of high-level anxiety; my mental state was strait being stretched, and I was very bold that I would not be able to catch up if I was even slightly thoughtless, and would thus punished by the prison police. Environment, getting through a single day safe and sound was not an easy thing to doThey did not have the slightest regard for any people lived or died. They made people work from early in the morning until late into the night. I was frequent so exhausted that I reality could not go on. It was not only this I have had to deal with all kinds of random exams in addition to my weekly political tasks, hands labor, and public tasks, so whenever, every day I was in a state of high-level anxiety; my mental state was Stretched, and I was very bold that I would not be able to catch up if I was even slightly thoughtless, and would thus punished by the prison police. In that kind of environment, getting through a single day safe and sound was not An easy thing to doThey did not have the slightest regard for any people lived or died. They made people work from early in the morning until late into the night. I was frequent so exhausted that I reality could not go on. It was not only this I have had to deal with all kinds of random exams in addition to my weekly political tasks, hands labor, and public tasks, so whenever, every day I was in a state of high-level anxiety; my mental state was Stretched, and I was very bold that I would not be able to catch up if I was even slightly thoughtless, and would thus punished by the prison police. In that kind of environment, getting through a single day safe and sound was not An easy thing to doI was frequent so exhausted that I reality could not go on. It was not only this, I also had to deal with all kinds of random exams in addition to my weekly political tasks, manual labor, and public tasks, , Every day I was in a state of high-level anxiety; my mental state was stereially stretched, and I was very bold that I would not be able to catch up if I was even thought thought again, and would have punished by Of the kind of environment, getting through a single day safe and sound was not an easy thing to do.I was frequent so exhausted that I reality could not go on. It was not only this, I also had to deal with all kinds of random exams in addition to my weekly political tasks, manual labor, and public tasks, , Every day I was in a state of high-level anxiety; my mental state was stereially stretched, and I was very bold that I would not be able to catch up if I was even thought thought again, and would have punished by Of the kind of environment, getting through a single day safe and sound was not an easy thing to do.My mental state was being stretched, and I was very bold that I would not be able to catch up if I was even slightly thoughtless, and would thus punished by the prison police. In that kind of environment, getting through a single Day safe and sound was not an easy thing to doMy mental state was being stretched, and I was very bold that I would not be able to catch up if I was even slightly thoughtless, and would thus punished by the prison police. In that kind of environment, getting through a single Day safe and sound was not an easy thing to do

When I had had started serving my sentence, I was not able to handle this type of cruel ravaging by the prison police. All kinds of intense manual labor and ideological pressure made it hard to breathe, not to mention that I had to all all S be of contact with the prisoners. I have also been to end the risk of the prisoners and the prisoners and the prisoners of the prisoners and the prisoners ... I was frequently persecuted and put in a tight spot. Times times, I sank into despair, especially when I thought of The length of my nine-year sentence, I felt a burst of desolate helplessness and did not know how many times I had cried-to the point that I thought about suicide to free myself from the pain that I was in. Every time I Sank into extreme sorrow and could not support myself, I would urgently pray and cry out to God and God would enlighten and guide me:You can not die yet. You must clench your fists and resolutely continue to live; you must live a life for God. When people have truth inside them they then are these resolve and never again desire to die; when death threatens you, you Will say, 'O God, I am unwilling to die; I still do not know You! I still have not repaid your love! ... I must bear good witness of God. I must repay God's love. After that, it does not Matter how I die will not die now; I must be tenaciously continue to live '("How to Know Man's Nature" in Records of Christ's Talks). God's words were like the soft and gentle sight of my mother placating my lonely heart. They were also like my father using both hands to warmly and gently wipe the tears from My face. Straightway, a warm current and power rushed through my heart. Even so I was in the dark prison, attempting suicide was not the will of God. I would not be able to testify of God and would also become Satan's laughing stock. It would be a testimony if I from out of this demonic prison after nine years. God's word gave me the courage to go with my life and I made a resolution in my heart: No matter what difficulties lie ahead of Me will live hard and will certainly testify to God's satisfaction.

Year in and year out, the overload of work caused my body to progressively weaken. After sitting for long periods in the factory I would begin sweating profusely and my hemorrhoids would bleed when people encountered severe enough. Due to my serious anemia, I would have been Feel the doctor is not an easy thing to do; if the prison police were happy, they would give me some cheap medicine. If they were not happy, they would say I was faking sick to skip work. I had to end the torment of this ailment and swallow my tears. After a day's work I would be completely completely worn out. I dragged my exhausted body to my prison cell and wanted to get some rest, but I did not have the power to Get an ounce of steady sleep: Either the prison police called called in the middle of the night to do something,I was was awakened by a rumbling by a rumbling noise by by the prison police. ... I was was put in the police or by unsanakably. I was like a refugee sleeping on the floor or In the corridors, or even next to the toilet. The clothes I washed were not dry, but were were crammed together with other prisoners' clothes to be dried. Washing clothes in the winter was especially frustrating Dzy clothing for long periods of time. In the prison, it didnt take long for healthy people to become dull and slow-witted, physical weak or disease-ridden. We frequently ate old, dried vegetable leaves that were out of season. If you wanted to eat something better, then you had to buy expensive food from the prisonEven the people were made to study law in the prison, there was no law there; the prison police were the law and if anyone rubbed them the wrong way, they could find a reason to punish you-even to the point that they could punish Any any reason at all. Even more despicable was that they deliberatesvers of Almighty God to be political criminals, saying that our crimes were more grievous than murder and committing arson. Therefore, they especially hated me and strictly controlled me, and persecuted me Most fercely. This kind of evil behavior is ironclad proof of the dictators' perverse behavior, opposition to Heaven, and enmity with God! Having endured the cruel torment of prison, my heart was was filled filled with righteous indignation:What is it believing in God and worshiping God violate? What crime is it to follow God and walk on the correct path of life? Humans were created by God's hands and believing in God and worshiping God is the law of heaven and earth; what reason Does the CCP government have violently obstruct and persecute this? Clearly it is its perverse behavior and opposition to Heaven; it is setting itself against God in every aspect, it attaches a reactionary label to the believers of Almighty God and severely persecutes and ravages us . It tries to eliminate all the believers of Almighty God in one fell swoop. Is this not changing black for white and being thorough reactionary? It frantically resists Heaven and is hostile with God; ultimate it must suffer God's righteous punishment! Everywhere there is corruption , Must must be judgment;Where there are sin, there must be punishment. This is God's predestined law of heaven, no one can escape it. The CCP government's evil crimes have mounted to the sky, and they will suffer God's destruction. Just as God said:God has long since loathed this dark society to His very bones. He gnashes His teeth, desperate to plant His feet upon this wicked, heinous old serpent, so that it may rise rise again, and will never again abuse man; He will not excuse Its actions in the past, He will not tolerate its deceit of man, He will settle the score for every one of its sins throughout the ages; God will not be in the least bit lenient toward this ringleader of all evil, [a] He Will utterly destroy it "(" Work and Entry (8) "in The Word Appears in the Flesh).

In this demonic prison, I was less than a stray dog ​​in the eyes of these evil police; they are only beat and scolded me, but these evil police would frequently and suddenly barge in and scatter my bed and personal belongings into a mess. , Every time some sort of riots took place in the outside world, the people in the prison who are in charge of political matters would find me and cross-examination my viewpoints with these events and they would not suddenly lash out at me about why I On the path of believing God. Each time I faced this type of questioning, my heart would jump into my throat, because I did not know what evil scheme they were in mind for me. My heart was always urgently praying to God and crying For help and guidance through this crisis. Day after day, year after year, the abuse, exploitation,And suppression tormented me with unspeakable suffering: each time I was overloaded with manual labor and dull, tedious political responsibility, I was also tormented by my ailment and on top of it all, I was mentally depressed. It drove me to the brink of falling Apart. When saw the middle of aged I have the same stifling dire straits and again again to contemplate suicide. I felt that death was the best kind of relief. But I know that would be betraying God and I could not do that. I had no other choice but to endous all The pain and submit to the arrangements of God.I felt that I could not go on enduring this and that I did not. I felt that I could not go on enduring this and that I did not Know how much longer I would be able to hold on. How many times I could do nothing but cover myself with my quilt in the dead of the night and cry, praying and pleading with Almighty God and telling Him about all the pain that was My mind. In the time of my most pain and helplessness, I thought: so that I can separate myself from corruption and receive God's salvation. These hardships are what I should suffer, and what I must suffer. As soon as I thought that being forced into prison as of my belief in God,And suffering hardships to seek salvation was of the greatest value and significance; this suffering was too valuable! Unknowingly, the distress of my heart transformed into joy and I was unable to restrain my emotions; I ever humming a hymn of experience I was familiar with In my heart called "Living Not in vain": "Living in in vain, even the hardships, there is meaning; living not in vain, we will not retreat in hardships; living not in vain, we got opportunities to know God; living Not in vain, we expendiences for the Most High God. Who is more blessed than us? Who is more fortunate than us? What God has given sur- His heavy love. "I repeated the hymn in my heart and the more I sang in my heart, the more I was encouraged; the more I sang,The more I felt I had power and joy. I could not help but make an oath in God's presence: "Oh Almighty God, I thank You for Your comfort and people that has caused me to once again have the faith and courage to go You are having the Lord of my life and you are the power of my life. Even though I am imprisoned in this hell hole, I am not alone, because you have always been with me through Oh God, if I am able to get out of here someday and live freely, then I will fulfill my duties and will no longer You are going to rely on you to go on living with strength! "Oh God, regardless of how hard or difficult the days are ahead,I could not help but make an oath in God's presence: "Oh Almighty God, I thank You for Your comfort and greatness that has caused me to once again have the faith and courage to go on living. You have allowed me to feel that You are performing the Lord of my life and you are the power of my life. Even though I am imprisoned in this hell hole, I am not alone, because you have always with me through these dark days; You have given me faith over And over again and have given me the motivation to go on. Oh God, if I am able to get out of here someday and live freely, then I will fulfill my duties and will no longer wound your heart nor make plans for myself. God, regardless of how hard or difficult the days are ahead, I am willing to rely on You to go on living with strength!I could not help but make an oath in God's presence: "Oh Almighty God, I thank You for Your comfort and greatness that has caused me to once again have the faith and courage to go on living. You have allowed me to feel that You are performing the Lord of my life and you are the power of my life. Even though I am imprisoned in this hell hole, I am not alone, because you have always with me through these dark days; You have given me faith over And over again and have given me the motivation to go on. Oh God, if I am able to get out of here someday and live freely, then I will fulfill my duties and will no longer wound your heart nor make plans for myself. God, regardless of how hard or difficult the days are ahead, I am willing to rely on You to go on living with strength!I thank You for Your comfort and people that have caused me to once again have the faith and courage to go on living. You have have me to feel that you are performing the Lord of my life and You are the power of my life. Even Though i have imprisoned in this hell hole, I am not alone, because you have always with me through these dark days; You have given me faith over and over again and have given me the motivation to go on. Oh God, if I Amity to get out of here someday and live freely, then I will fulfill my duties and will no longer wound Your heart nor make plans for myself. Oh God, regardless of how hard On you to go on living with strength!I thank You for Your comfort and people that have caused me to once again have the faith and courage to go on living. You have have me to feel that you are performing the Lord of my life and You are the power of my life. Even Though i have imprisoned in this hell hole, I am not alone, because you have always with me through these dark days; You have given me faith over and over again and have given me the motivation to go on. Oh God, if I Amity to get out of here someday and live freely, then I will fulfill my duties and will no longer wound Your heart nor make plans for myself. Oh God, regardless of how hard On you to go on living with strength!You have have me to feel that of the Lord of my life and you are the power of my life. Even though I am imprisoned in this hell hole, I am not alone, because you have always with me through these dark days You have given me faith over and over again and have given me the motivation to go on. Oh God, if I am able to get out of here someday and live freely, then I will fulfill my duties and will no longer wound Your heart Nor make plans for myself. Oh God, regardless of how hard or difficult the days are ahead, I am willing to rely on You to go on living with strength!You have have me to feel that of the Lord of my life and you are the power of my life. Even though I am imprisoned in this hell hole, I am not alone, because you have always with me through these dark days You have given me faith over and over again and have given me the motivation to go on. Oh God, if I am able to get out of here someday and live freely, then I will fulfill my duties and will no longer wound Your heart Nor make plans for myself. Oh God, regardless of how hard or difficult the days are ahead, I am willing to rely on You to go on living with strength!You have given me faith over and over again and have given me the motivation to go on. Oh God, if I am able to get out of here someday and live freely, then I will fulfill my duties and will no longer wound Your heart nor Make plans for myself. Oh God, regardless of how hard or difficult the days are ahead, I am willing to rely on You to go on living with strength!You have given me faith over and over again and have given me the motivation to go on. Oh God, if I am able to get out of here someday and live freely, then I will fulfill my duties and will no longer wound Your heart nor Make plans for myself. Oh God, regardless of how hard or difficult the days are ahead, I am willing to rely on You to go on living with strength!

In prison, I often recalled the days with my brothers and sisters; that was such a beautiful time! Everyone cheered and laughed, and we also had disputes, but all of these became fond memories. But every time I reflected on the times I perfunctorily I felt extremely about guilty and indebted. I thought about the disputes I had with the brothers and sisters because of my arrogant disposition; I felt special uncomfortable and remorseful. Every time this happened, I would burst into tears and I would Silently sing a familiar hymn in my heart: "I forth resilience how many good times have been lost, the time is gone and will not come back, all that is left is remorse. ... I will make up for my faults of the past, Filled with faith and ready to recommence; God bestows me with opportunities, and forgives me again;I am willing to choose again. Cherish today, sacrifice my all, I will be God God for the last time; God is anxious, God is anticipating, I can not let God down again "(" I Truly Regret "in Follow the Lamb and Sing In my pain and self-blame, I have prayed to God in my heart: Oh God! I have true cage short of you too much; if You will allow it, I am willing to seek to love You. After I will be so that of my brothers and sisters who I was in contact with Morning and night; I really wanted to see them, but in this demonic prison that I was held captive in, this desire was an impossible request. However, I would have seen these brothers and sisters in my dreams;I dreamed that we were reading the word of God together and communicating truth together. We were happy and cheerful.

During the great Wenchuan earthquake of 2008, the prison were arrested up in was shaken and I was the last person to evacuate the scene at the time. During those days there were after aftershocks. Both prisoners and prison police were so alarmed and anxious that They could not carry on. But my heart was especially unperturbed and steadfast, because I false that this was God's word coming to pass; it was the arrival of God's fiery rage. During that one in a hundred year earthquake, God's word always protected My heart; I believe that the life and death of man is all in God's hands. Regardless of how God does it, I am willing to submit to the arrangements of God. However, the only thing that made me sad was if I died, Then I would no longer have the opportunity to fulfill my duty to the Lord of creations,I would no longer have the opportunity to repay God's love, and I would not be able to see my brothers and sisters. Yet, my anxiety was superfluous; God was always with me and gave me the utmost protection, which allowed me to survive the Earthquake and live peacefully through it!

In January of 2011, I was released early, which ended ended my life of slavery in prison. In aid my freedom, my heart was exceptionally excited: I can return to the church! I can be with my brothers and sisters! Words could not Describe my emotional frame of mind. What I did not expect was that after returning home, my daughter did not know me, and my relatives and friends looked at me with a peculiar gaze; they all distanced themselves far from me and wouldn ' T interact with me. The people around me did not understand me or take me in. At this time, even though I was not in prison being abused and tormented, the cold looks, sneers, and abandonment made it difficult to bear. I gains weak and negative. I could not help but reflect back on the days past: When the incident happened, I was only thirty-one years old; when I got out of prison,Eight times winters and seven summers had passed. How many times in my loneliness and helplessness had God arranged people, matters and things to help me; how many times in my pain and despair had God's words comforted me; How many times when I wanted to die Had God given me power to have the courage to go on living. ... during those long and painful years, it was God who led me step by step out of the valley of the shadow of death to tenaciously go on living. Now, I became negative and weak and had grieved God. I was truly cowardly and incompetent person that had bit the hand that fed me! In thinking about this, my heart was strongly condemned; I could not help but the think of the oath I Made with God while I was in prison: "If I am able to get out of here someday and live freely, then I will still fulfill my duties.I am not willing to wound God's heart again and I will no longer make plans for myself! "I pondered this oath and reflected on the circumstance I was in when made the oath to God. Tears blurred my sight and I slowly sang a hymn Of God's word: "Out of my own willingness I follow God. I do not care whether he wants me or not. I seek to love Him, steadfastly follow Him. I will gain Him, offering my life to Him. May the will of God be accomplished. May my heart be fully offered up to God. No matter what God does or what He plans for me, I'll keep on the following, seeking to gain Him. ... If you wish to stand and fulfill God's will, if you want to follow Him from the end, lay a firm foundation, practice truth in all things. This pleases God and He will join your love. ... As you face trials, you're grieved and suffering. Yet, for the sake of loving God, you ' D endure every hardship, give up your life and everything "(" I Will Not Rest Until I Gain God "in Follow the Lamb and Sing New Songs).

After some time of spiritual devotions and adjustment, I quickly came out of my negativity under the enlightenment of God and I threw myself back into the ranks of fulfilling my duties.

Even though the best years of my youth were spent in prison; during these seven years and four months I suffered hardships because of my belief in God, I have no complaints and no regrets, because I understand some truth and have experienced God’s love. I feel that there is meaning and value to my suffering; this is an exception of exaltation and grace God made for me; this is my partiality! Even if my relatives and friends don’t understand me, and even if my daughter doesn’t know me, no person, matter or thing could separate me from my relationship with God; even if I die, I cannot leave God.

Pure Love Without Blemish is the hymn I most loved to sing in prison; now, I want to use my real actions to offer the most pure love to God!
Footnotes:

a. “Ringleader of all evil” refers to the old devil. This phrase expresses extreme dislike.

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